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I think it is a very big thing and I congratulate you on your success. you did a great job. distraction is one of the key ways not to harm yourself and you used it successfully. do you think the feeling would go away faster if you discussed what you were feeling in chat? I don't know, I am just asking. there is a book called the scarred soul. you can get it on amazon. it is kinda a work book. you read a chapter and answer journal questions at the end of each. it is very non threatening to work thru. it doesn't ask you to give up cutting until the end of the book. it just helps you to understand what is going on. I had to quit doing it when it asked me to commit to quitting because I wasn't ready. but I didn't cut for five years, then only a couple times when I went thru a nervous breakdown and now it has been over seven so I consider it to be a really good tool even if you don't finish it. keep up the good work, take care.