After my angry session yesterday, I left in a huff and after I calmed down and some things clicked, I went back and wrote a letter longhand on a piece of mixed media painting paper and gave it to her between sessions and I text to ask if she could respond today via e-mail but she e-mailed this morning to say we will talk about it on Monday night. Is that a good or bad thing?

It worries me. Either she thinks it's too "loaded" for e-mail, or she's angry about what I wrote and monday will be a bad session.

Since it was written by hand it wasn't very polished or well organized so maybe she didn't like what I had to say or how I presented it...I also told her that despite my intentionally provoking her, that doesn't mean she hasn't still made mistakes. Maybe I shouldn't have said that...

I hate worrying for no reason, and I have NOTHING to do with my weekend.

The girl I get riding lessons from has quit doing lessons (again). There's only one OA meeting in my area today. (Unless I go to AA and hide in the back?) The only movie I want to see (if I stay) is just ONE movie and will be over in a blink. There's nothing else I can think of doing to occupy myself except go swimming at my boss's apartment while they're out of town. Maybe I'll do that. That's a good idea.

I am still worried.