((((((Everyone)))) Thanks for replying ..this has been quite a tender and very scary post that i did and i was literally putting my heart out on a string....thank God no one cut it down lol ....
Notthemama.....i want to fully acknowledge that EVERYONE here has been such wonderful supportive friends to me and that they all are brave and strong in themselves and they are not forgotten in my heart or in my memory..its just it was this one incident only that was so tender and gentle and like Bronee said..."massive" i was unable to tell anyone else even though i know that they would have helped me as much as that one person did..unfortunatly one of my bad qualities is that when i am in the most trouble and in the most pain i tend to drawl into myself and maybe confide in ONE person ..if im lucky... please forgive me.