That's a wild story but I believe it- I can see why it could happen.

This girl is similar, and I've hit every stage of grief (besides complete acceptance). Though I've mostly gotten over the idea of winning her back and getting her to change her mind (denial/bargaining), I've become angry at everything, angry at myself, the world, and the girl (anger), and I've become deeply depressed. (depression).

As the days pass, these symptoms fade, but it all tends to loom over me. I still feel like I lost something (the girl), and something more (my life, my feeling of fulfillment, my goals). In reality, these losses will hopefully lead me closer to where I need to be, and make me grow stronger overall. The lessons should be extremely valuable to me- perhaps I won't need to suffer so much when I get older if I learn from these mistakes. But it still hurts and feels empty.... In Buddhism, "emptiness" is a state of desire- to "empty" one's cup- so maybe I should look at it that way.

But overall, the feeling is absolutely terrible and horrid to say the least. I have enough problems in my life- I don't need this stupid little girl multiplying them. I recognize how she holds me back from what I need to be doing- and now I just need to get the heck over it already, before it's too late. I don't want to feel the hurt anymore- I want the pain to just go away.