I am 36 and a single parent of a 16 year old girl. Her father has never been in the picture and due to my mental illness I have always felt that I've been holding her up while drowning. She has recently started lying, running away, and been disrespectful. I'm being triggered left and right and I'm having a hard time coping. I feel like I cant take care of her anymore and someone should take her away. I pressed charges on her for unruly runaway and took her to the crisis center and enrolled her into counseling. Im taking steps for her but on the inside I just want to die. I would rather kill myself and face non-existence than face one more trigger. I can't trust anyone anymore and I don't belong in this world.