I think that I know exactly how you feel. I think we have something in common when it comes to our relationships and when I read your post, I connected with it. I also feel like I can't be myself, like I have to pretend, otherwise we fight. My husband and I are so different and don't have much in common either. For 10 years I have had conflicting emotions and have been too scared to leave. I keep trying to leave, but I stay every time. What I have learned is the longer you pretend, the more it eats away at you. I don't think that feeling will ever go away until it is dealt with. Questions, do you love him? Are you in love with him? Can you see yourself living without him, happily? Just something for you to think about.
I don't know if any of this helps you, but I wanted to respond.
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