I'm really reluctant to be honest because I do know that I'm disgusting and need to shower more, but I can't seem to care enough to summon up the energy and motivation to do it.

Pre-this I used to shower every other day, unless it was really hot or I'd exercised/gotten sweaty somehow, and I'd wash my hair 2x week because I have very dry hair and it goes frizzy & brittle if I wash it too much.

For the last 7 years, I've varied from showering 2x week with one hair wash at my best times down to every 6 weeks (after much nagging from my family) for both my shower and hair. I just find self-care so hard and IDKY. I only occasionally brush my teeth, even though I'm worried about them falling out, and I don't always brush my hair every day, and I only wear makeup for a special occasion that will involve photographs (I would also shower and wash hair) or for an appt that requires me to seem capable, like the craft class I run. Also I find bathing less exhausting cos I can do all the washing and shaving sat down the whole time, rather than bending over and lifting legs to reach toes in the shower. Either way I am completely exhausted afterwards.

I know that I'm gross, but I can't seem to motivate myself to make (and more importantly keep up!) the effort needed. I was showering once a week for a bit to convince my parents I was well enough to go back to Uni, and I thought that was pretty good, but it still wasn't up to acceptable standards imposed by society *sigh* And weirdly, poor self-care is my first sign of depression and it is also the last thing to improve. I can feel pretty good and be functioning reasonably well, going to Uni etc, but I still have no desire to shower more than once a week

*Willow*