Wow Soul Flower, I must say you have beautifully summed up my situation as well. I feel as if I'm getting better and then all of the sudden you feel these old feelings come up and you're back at the start again. I have to admit that my resolve wavers too, but I think what is important is a forward motion. Whether it is an inch or a mile I think any movement toward your goal is a step in the right direction. How to manage these feelings is something I haven't been able to come up with though.