Thank you to everyone that responded...already it feels great to know that there is such a large, comforting, and welcoming community out there. I thought I was the only one with these issues, and it goes a long way to know that I'm not alone
I plan on talking to my T on Monday, so hopefully she'll be able to give me more feedback and help me work through these feelings. You are all amazing individuals and I'm grateful to have stumbled upon this site when I did.