wow, you've done a good job at deconstructing my depressive distortions. I know that these are not rationally true but it is what I feel.
I don't know. maybe I am just a weirdo. I feel I am not normal deep inside and for that reason I cannot expect that others want to be around me. very often I feel like I was an impostor perfectly pretending to be normal and I was deceiving others who believe that, which is not okay. well, I think you may have helped me to discover a major issue here.

actually in an economic sense you can say they are of no value right now as I don't get money for using them. that's a very clear statement.

no. you are right. but it actually makes me feel a lot worse to think of that. for one part because I feel guilty and for another one because I think it's even worse if only the people I like don't like me.
I must say that I am not running after celebrities usually. I don't always choose the pretty ones to fall in love with. I rather avoid those. but I wish to make friends with people with whom I have something in common. and I find that rarely. so it hurts a lot if they are rejecting me.
if someone who doesn't understand a word I am saying decides I am not interesting I don't particularly care. true. but if I have a conversation and a very good time with someone who perfectly gets me, my interests, my humor and everything is just fine. and that person then never want's to see me again, that's very painful. don't you think so?

I am just remembering a long series of failed attempts to approach people.

well thanks. that was intense. you should be a therapist.