Greetings...
I was just diagnosed with Bipolar for the second time. My first time I didn't believe it and followed zero instructions, I thought hey I'm just a messed up 20 year old, that's all.
Let me share what has brought me here and why the second diagnosis was given.
I will make things as short as possible.
Earlier this year my wife and I purchased our first home together. It was a glorious time for us both, we were ecstatic and bursting a part at the seems. Our dream finally came true.
It was short lived for me...
Very first week we moved in, our drain pipes began to backup into the shower and the toilet, stressful to say the least and costly. Then a few days later our hot water heater decided to die.
More stress... I became very agitated, my sleep habits became sporadic, and I began drinking increasingly heavier and heavier. We started arguing a lot, I mean a lot. I felt out of control, like my skeleton was going to erupt from my
flesh and go running around the room cackling like a wild man(which is how I felt).
This is where things take a turn for the worse.
My wife's sister was hanging out on a daily basis, she would listen to her sister bicker about things and would listen to me. Instead of being a neutral party she "took" my side. She would persistently tell me how my wife secretly hated me, she was with me out of necessity, how she wanted to do me harm. The state of mind I was in was extreme, which I now know was mania. I believed what her sister said, every damn word. It became so fierce and real to me that I walked out on my wife of ten years.
I had to get away or so I thought, I was so out of control. Excessive spending, excessive drinking, memory loss.
I won't divulge any more then that, but I was on a reckless downward spiral for close to two months before I "crashed".
I crashed when I realized completely what I had done. I cheated on my wife, with her with her sister.
Your reading this thinking what a POS, and I agree.
I DO NOT condone my actions, I still to this moment really don't know how it happened or why it did, as I have never been remotely attracted to her. In fact I've always found her quite homely. In fact I hardly recall the incident.
Has anyone else experienced anything similar to this? How did you get through it? How did you reconcile with your spouse?
Thank you for reading.
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