Greetings...

Try this again, first post botched somehow.

I was just diagnosed with Bipolar 1. I have finally sought medical help after a 2 month period of madness as I thought it was(mania as I'm told).
I felt out of control and insane. I felt like everything my wife said or did was a strike against me, outside influence from her sister made things 100x worse. Finally I snapped and left, I was on a roller coaster of huge rises, little falls and back to huge rises. Add alcohol to this equation and my senses were null.

I felt like I would burst apart at any moment, my skeleton tearing itself from the flesh running around cackling maniacally.
There are huge amounts of time that I am missing, and I did things I shouldn't have. I'm not using this illness as an excuse but has anyone else had a one night stand while insanely manic?
If so, what did you do to win your spouses heart and trust back?

So frustrated and alone in this. Could use all the help I can get.

Thanks