I was doing well. Then some things happened, I realised I am alone(I have friends), I don't have a deep emotional support.

Constant feelings and emotions of loss.....deep loss, and grief? And SHAME.......always SHAME. And all of the images of times.....in the past.

Tonight I gave in, and suddenly realised I was sobbing, sobbing so loudly my body was shaking, I felt like my heart was going to stop.

That sounds like I am being dramatic, I know, but it's real. I feel so bad for giving in to it! I'm worried I'll do that with T.......

I'm really hurting tonight.