We were both writing.

I feel guilt because I was shamed my entire childhood, and into adulthood...to this day...by my family for any emotions I show. After my sister picked me up, reluctantly, from hospital after attempting to take my life about 4 years ago...she yelled at me all the way home because I did not stop to think how it would make her feel.

Iam trying to have more compassion for myself, and on my good days I can manage some and allow emotions to a degree. But it is a protective measure I have had to use for so long......it is hard to break.

Thanks Johnny for your kind words. It is nice to know I ma not alone right now......

ps. I am crying buckets of big tears as I type, and trying to allow myself, feel ok with it....