Yes. My mental illnesses exasperate my self hate and pretty much take away any confidence I have, especially my schizoaffective.
I wish I was "normal", as in, I wish my illnesses could disappear. I'm not the kind of person who appreciates the "gifts" that come with mental illness, because it's a living hell for me every day. The only positive thing that comes from my illnesses is more empathy and understanding for others, but I already had enough of that before I was aware of illness.

My schizoaffective causes the most damage to my sense of self, how I'm able to percieve myself around others, and I know it's something I need to bring up with my therapist, but there's often not enough time in our sessions, and I'd feel weird about it anyway.