Hi brashkoala, welcome to the community. I am glad you are beginning to feel better but it does take time to recover from depression. Sometimes medication alone does not fix everything. Most people would recommend that if you can find a way to get therapy that would be helpful. I don't think you are lazy. And you are not old yet. You will find as you get older you definition of "old" changes. Perhaps as you get to feeling better you could seek out a second job to help pay for a car. Best of wishes to you.