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Originally Posted by Hellion
I have wondered that about myself many times, though for different reasons. One being I am pretty sure I had a dream about the traumatic event that led to my PTSD about a year before it happened....I guess that could indicate other things than being 'crazy' then again what would a psychatrist/psychologist or psych ward staff person think if I told them that?
But aside from that I usually feel like I am somewhere between sanity and insanity, like standing on the edge of a cliff but then of course my over-anaylitical mind can't let me forget sanity, insanity, crazy, sane, insane are vauge terms that don't actually refer to anything concrete. So then where does that leave me?
But regardless if I am crazy or insane, I don't think that makes me unworthy of human existance and If that description fits you or anyone else in any way I don't think it makes one unworthy of existence....but as I said before they are vauge terms anyways.
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Hellion, read Peter Levine. In Waking the Tiger he talks about the spookiness of trauma. You had a premonitory dream. My dad did all the time. Me too. I feel sick before mass shootings. Levine mentioned the woman who was the third generation of plane crash survivors. Her dad and his dad too. They weren't a family of stunt pilots. My dada first wife died in surgery in hope of removing a brain tumor. He was 20. He saw how young wife confused and frightened by her early symptoms, from frightening typing errors to being unable to climb stairs. When I was eighteen a new friend began to die from a brain aneurism. I saw the same things my dad saw. How often do young women up and die with brain tumours/aneurysms?
pTsd itself has a way of making us feel "its all fated". But the premonitions are real, so Its not.crazy to know about them, and the coincidences are also real and noted.