The more I read about borderline personality, the more I see that I do have many traits associated with it. I am not sure if I officially fit a diagnosis but I wouldn't be surprised if I did. I don't have some of the symptoms such as physical self harm but I do seem to harm myself in other ways but not on purpose. I have had much trouble with relationships and the ability to keep jobs from quitting (never fired) and also the most troublesome one...relocating to other states or other towns without good reasons. I could go on about the other BPD details but I am most interested in some of your opinions about the over 45 times moving about the country (8 different US states and numerous towns) without good concrete reasons. I think they are good reasons at the time but in actuality they are not.

I don't move for a job change. I am on disability. I don't even know what the apt looks like before I move. I don't move because I have family or friends there. These are my odd reasons for moving: lower crime rate, better weather, less traffic and the like. The last time I moved I just lost my mini-schnauzer to illness and I felt lost. The time before that, I lost my relationship.

I am not kidding here. I moved to the border of Maine and Canada in the middle of nothing. I made it through the harsh winter but in just 4 months time, I wanted to move back where I moved from.

Anyone have any ideas why I may decide to move away from a place? OR Do you yourself do this and find yourself in a worse situation than you were in like I do so many times? I am also talking to my T about this. This behavior is self destructive but at the time I am not conscious of this.

Thanks

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