And I can't seem to stop it. It keeps coming in waves.....and I'm drowning in it....
I alternately want to pull every hair out of my head, and crawl between snarled sheets and just frucking cry and cry and cry......
Been so long since such a melt down....and my kids are coming over tonight...wothehell....do I claim allergies again for the puffy eyes? Do I cancel......again?????
I hate me. I hate me. I hate me.
God it's so awful.
I'm drowning.
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Sometimes the opening of wings is more frightening than the challenge against gravity. Both make you free..............the secret is perception.
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