And I can't seem to stop it. It keeps coming in waves.....and I'm drowning in it....

I alternately want to pull every hair out of my head, and crawl between snarled sheets and just frucking cry and cry and cry......

Been so long since such a melt down....and my kids are coming over tonight...wothehell....do I claim allergies again for the puffy eyes? Do I cancel......again?????

I hate me. I hate me. I hate me.

God it's so awful.

I'm drowning.