Life sucks, what am I going to do about that....F***, afraid I cannot even keep a recent friendship I started going, even considering dating the guy...but f*** I don't wanna make him deal with a crazy person like me. Also haven't talked to a friend I was close to in ages....don't know why, I really should call him and get together with him...I am 25 and he's much older and not in great health so I feel absolutely terrible not contacting him for so long since obviously he has less time to live than I do(provided I don't off myself within the next year or whatever). And I'd be crushed if he dies and I never even spent anymore time with him.