I feel ok right now, but quite certain my life will end in suicide...

And sorry for all the negativity and posts of how terrible I feel, even though my life could suck a lot mroe....I just have nowhere else to vent about it. My family doesn't like to hear it and I guess I can see its painful and hard to deal with for them to see me like that...so I fake and I fake and I fake that i am ok and its so freaking exhausting. And I feel about ready to snap at people I care about and who care about me and I absolutely hate it.....I just want to run away, get away so I can't do that.

Don't know how much longer I can take it