I would never be able to be self-employed, my self-discipline waxes and wanes with each passing mood.

I need structure in my life, it helps to keep me balanced. More importantly, there are MANY times that if I'm not held accountable I will simply opt to just not.

So if I were depressed or ecstatically hypo, I would either stay in bed indefinitly or run off to the beach!

Why not? I have nobody to answer to except me...

Thereafter I will kick myself and indulge in a shytload of self-loathing for not making enough money.

I'm hoping to find a happy medium, at the
moment being an employee isn't terrible.

My job is low stress yet interesting, my manager is a riot and friendly to boot. My co workers are cool and really helpful, I get urged to go and have my hour lunch and even get free French Manis and eyebrow waxes, courtesy of the company.

Buuut, my happy medium would be more along the lines of working flexi time or having the opportunity to work from home whenever I need to...

I didn't mean to type a novel

In short I can't be self-employed, my daughter and I would starve to death.