I also watched a video being critical and very enlightening on the fifty shades of grey novel series. I found a quote on the docu on real couples who do bdsm, but the what it relates to me. Saying all these things on statistics that people who have kink male and female both suffer great stigma from family, friends, strangers.

That describes me exactly when I meet a girl, I feel that I struggle with a recent problem of wanting to be intimate recent I mean this year. Also struggling with my sexuality being shamed upon of wanting to be dominant and having sex with my partner with another person. I am always with someone over a long time and meet all these control freaks, who want me to submit, but I'm too stubborn, because I've been so done being told what to do all my life and being assumed less than a human in the manner I've been treated of. I've done a great job with my current single independence, but it's getting much harder, because of this society we live in and I fear of falling in love with people who only care about hurting me because they are more afraid than I am.