Thanks DePressMe...

I appreciate your thoughts and it really does seem like you are working the program .. your program. After all this is what therapy is to do... amoung other things... is to help us figure out how to figure out what is going on within us.

I agree with finding resourses. Currently a couple of IMers and friends IRL and my T are my resourses.. Mainly my T and also the work done over many years.

I historically had times of meditation and a couple groups.. all before I got a computer or the internet. So the internet offers an interesting opportunity. It is more of a spilling in a more of an anonymous way....with the time limited only by the self, not by other group members ...as long as the interaction continues.

I agree and appreciate your second paragraph particularly... It is how envision a successful therapeutic relationship and the bulk of the work I have been through to date.

Lately there have been struggles, a tug of war.. .often with myself that he sometimes gets the brunt of. It is confusing o me sometimes. You sound like you have a wonderful relationship with your therapist. Do you ever experience the struggles or anger (at least for me--and whatever for you or others) at times... particularly of difficult change or acceptance?

I am not to the point of sharing with most of the world ....yet. I admire your strength and willingness to do so. I fear judgement... when actually most of the judgement is by myself. Acceptance... what a gift..... a loverly gift.

Thanks.