Everybody is asking me why I don't have a boyfriend and it's making me insane, year after year. If I have found a solution, I wouldn't be in this situation voluntary. In a few weeks I have a big family birthday party of my gran and I have already big problems with that. I can't sleep and I'm beeing very edgy.

But the big problem is that, I no more like going out, because I don't see a point in that. It's like nobody notices me, like I'm invisilbe. The last time I was on a bigger party I nearly got crushed. Only when I told somone to keep a little attention they noticed me and moved on saying no word.
I'm also already on a single site and I get lots of e-mail how beautiful and how friendly I look, but nobody wants to meet. Do I send bad vibes? I don't know.

My confidence is at a moment at the lowest. My only wish is that someone, anybody recognize me as the person who I am. I'm so confused.