I have known my current partner for many years. I returned from living overseas and a little over one and half years ago, we have been romantically involved. I am currently bi weekly engaged to the most beautiful, intelligent, soft and witty person. I am also bi weekly estranged from a monster.

Just after we started going out she checked herself in to a mental health facility as she was having a small breakdown. I supported her fully during this process even though my own mother died during this time. She was suffering from depression. She was never diagnosed with any specific disorder, although it is known that the facility she stayed at, is more of a vacation spot than a proper mental health facility. She does however suffer from ADD. Prior to her stay she had been abusing both prescription, as well as illegal drugs. During her stay at the facility she was put on various medications and sleeping medication. After she left the facility she started deviating from the prescribed dosages, and eventually just stopped altogether. Since her stay at the facility, as well as during her stay, she also stated developing cold sweats at night.

My sweetheart can be very loving, and at other times very aggressive. Both verbally, and on the odd occasion, physically. One week she can’t wait for us to get married as soon as possible, and have a baby together, and on the other week she doesn’t want anything to do with me. She will bar me from her house, and even threaten me with legal action should I try and contact her. Then she will start texting me again, and everything will be wonderful again after a brief chat. She was also pregnant almost 10 months ago, she chose to abort the fetus, and only told me about it afterwards. She was very remorseful, she fell pregnant a couple of months later again, but this time she had a miscarriage.

I am really worried about her and I also love her dearly, and want her to get better and happy again. She has slowly destroyed relationships with family and friends from both our sides. I so badly want her to get better, but I don’t know how long I can do this anymore. She is constantly putting major strain on my family situation and my work has suffered tremendously. I know it all sounds like a lot, and most people would probably tell me that a diagnosis can’t be made online, but I do need help. She does not think that she has a problem, but finds fault with everyone she comes into contact with. She also still uses / abuses prescription drugs that she gets illegally. She uses Alzam on and off, sometimes for a week at a time. She also contemplates suicide. Could her problem be hormonal, or maybe drug related? She is a good person deep down. She also refuses to go see any therapist or mental health professional. Please help. She is 39 years old.