After about two years of doing absolutely nothing, I finally found a job. It was a nightmare, but I decided to keep on just to prove myself that I can resist. I wanted to quit just after two weeks of working there, but I set my mind to get to the end of the six-month contract. I asked my mother and my uncle for help everytime I didn't know how to deal with my ex boss, but then my uncle nearly had a heart attack and my world turned upside down. I had to deal with so much stress on my own. And I handled it much better than I expected.

They said at work I would continue to work for them, but it turns out they didn't hire me back. And now I am tired, frustrated, angry, depressed... I overreact at the littlest thing. I'm always complaining about everything, but the worst part is that it feels to me like I'm waking up from a really bad dream and it just goes on. I don't seem to understand what happened, what is happening, why it happens and when this is going to end.

I'm confused and I have this childish need of approval, that I'm getting sick of myself. I feel so insecure, I can't make the simplest decision.

Some people told me that I just had to rest and all things would fall right into their places, but I hate staying at home doing nothing, being called by my mother who doesn't understand that I'm just stuck at home washing the dishes or doing laundy, but definitely not just watching TV or sleeping or texting.

And when I try to set my mind at ease, when I think about all changes that I've been through in only six months, when I try to understand all my feelings and my anger, because I want to put an end to this... I just feel confused, like I can't process what happened, like it was not me who lived all this.

Any ideas on how I can finally find some understanding and peace?