Hi ShyOne, this is a big site and at different times people will fit in in different places of it. So maybe it's good right now that you've found yourself here. There are a lot of really understanding and supportive people here and I hope we can help at least just a little with the way you're feeling if you can stick with us.
It sounds like you're going through a really tough time right now, and you're feeling very vulnerable?? It's got to be hard for you to cope with everything coming at you/going on for you. Maybe something has happened to cause these moods, things building up, pressures you're feeling??? Although sometimes finding a way to feel/be more in control of what's going on for/around/in you can help a lot and help you find solutions to
some things or to see some things differently........it might mean taking a "breather"/a step back/making some changes/or pulling on support to do that and maybe we could help if you need support/ideas.
And sometimes it's about recognising triggers when they're coming at you, sometimes the smallest things can be triggers but recognising them can help a lot and finding ways you're going to handle them when they come along.
But then sometimes we just need someone to reach out, be there for us, give us some understanding/empathy for starters.
So if you can tell us a bit more about what's going on for you it might really help........
And the feeling of being alone.........well I'm glad you came to us, at least you're not so alone now, we're here for you.

Alison