This is the second time this has happened in a year. The last time I was off my medications, I ended up in the hospital due to an attempt. My doctors, however, don't seem to think it is a problem to not put refills where there can be, and that throwing me on and off my medication is just FINE and SAFE. Even though they came to see me on the ward I was on last time.

It's all such wonderful timing, too. My family is packing up and moving in 25 days because of ridiculous reasons, and I am losing my whole life here which is frustrating and scary. But I don't have the means to live alone (physically disabled/chronically ill) so I am following.

I can't even pick myself up when I lay down. Which no one seems to notice or, when they do, I brush it off as me trying to settle pain down.

I can't take St.Johns wart but are there other natural methods that have helped with depression? I take vitamin D everyday which has helped, B12, etc. I'd rather get some chemicals in my body right then end up back in the psych ward for another month and then another month of partial.