I'm sorry you're struggling so much right now.
I hope you will be able to stay strong and continue to battle your addictions. I think it really does take a long time to stop wanting to, or thinking about it. Maybe it'll always be there, some where inside you, but you are strong enough not to listen.
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Allie
Diagnosed: Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Obsessive Compulsive Disoder. Previous: Borderline Personality Disorder.
I no longer qualify for a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, but there will always be my borderline traits that I struggle with especially during times of great stress.
I've been working passionately as a therapist since December 2016
