So recently I've been going through a lot. I started taking the highest dose of Latuda and my pdoc wanted me off Saphris because of the high dose. So I stopped it cold turkey like my pdoc said. After a few days I started to feel REALLY BAD. I started having really bad nausea. After a few more days I started dry heaving every few minutes multiple times in a row. It was hard to breath, I was sweating like crazy, I was very dizzy and it was hard to walk, I was shaking really badly and it felt like my insides where being ripped out of my body. It started making me think that maybe these meds really shouldn't be in my body. I also went to a new pdoc and he was talking about how we have no idea on some of the long term effects on some of these meds, and was talking about some bad stuff he's been told about some of these meds long term. I've done some reading and I know that some of these meds can cause stuff like Diabetes and other things. So I'm honestly kind of scared of my meds. Since I've been detoxing I haven't had a chance to fully take my meds since I keep throwing them up... I've been fine for the most part, and my new girlfriend has helped a lot. I did hear voices once, and have a moment of some depression but other then that I could handle it. I'm just really scared of everything I guess. I'm sick of side effects, sick of just chocking down meds every day, and sick of worrying and having to ask about interactions on everything I'm thinking or might need to take. But on the other hand I'm scared of myself without meds. But if I can find a way to handle everything and take care of myself it might not be so bad. I also don't want to find myself in the hospital again. But again I wonder if I can learn to handle everything better then maybe I have a chance. So anyway, wondering what you all think.

Thanks