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Originally Posted by CANDC
Teacake, I am just a compassionate human being trying to understand what you are going through. From what you say there are many violent thoughts going through your mind but you have the wisdom not to act on them. I commend you on that.
From what you are saying your medicines do not quite feel right. I think it would be a mistake to stop consulting with doctors. I know the ER is not a fun place - is there any way you can make an appointment with a psychiatrist with medicaid so they can evaluate how effective your medicine is dong and possibly consider changes?
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I am off all medicine. This is me coming off Prozac. It will take five weeks to get it out of me. Until then, Im also off Adderall and more ADHD because of Prozac than my usual medicated self.
I was seriously retraumatised in hospital with Fats Ratchet the charge nurse surrounding me with her flying monkeys. I did nothing to deserve it. I have PTSD already from being an adult woman who had to face violence. You better believe I have violent thoughts. I believed I would have to use ballet/karate training to get to a cop before he could draw his weapon and shoot my elderly father. I was gently raised. This isn't what we typically did weekends. It was outside the realm of my usual experience. I'm going to think that violent thought u.til the energy is discharged and I have "resolved it.
I itch for a man to walk it through with me. A man and a dummy gun. Should I go to Craig's list? I might!