I am lonely as I exited a relationship, with no one new, to replace...replace the feeling of companionship....to have meals and plan meals together, go out and enjoy nightlife, live bands, and karaoke together...even the quiet, down times meant something, especially on a wintry weekend afternoon, when one needs company the most..

I have a lover that is extremely talented sexually, yet a selfish person, talking about himself, yet not knowing much about me, who I am..and we only see each other once a month or less..

I have really close, beautiful, true friendships, yet they aren't always available, on a day to day basis..one of my friends cancels our plans 90% of the time..

My mother told me this weekend, that when her husband passes away, she would like to get a place with me, which would involve moving to her town, I am pleased she invited me to do this..

Her husband is dying, which makes me sad, as he is a good person, but slowly..

I am staying with my Mom near my brother this weekend, and the feeling of having family nearby, is powerful, a stronger love than my friendships at home..

But I know I must face my life back home, for the time being..difficult..

I feel lonely nearly all the time....my work will begin again when the schoolyear starts back up, and that will help a little..

I feel very touched emotionally when in a support group, the conversation is deep and real..

Yet the support group ends, and I'm left to my own devices again..

I guess meaningful discussion helps me, since I'm oftentimes texting deep conversations with friends...

I know one day I will live with my Mom, and this comforts me...