I only shower when I have to go out. And I don't get to go out very often. Usually once a week, sometimes every other week. When I'm at home alone I tend to gradually degenerate into depression and psychosis. Can't be bothered to change my clothes or bathe then. Seems no point. I know that people will retort with the fact that looking after my well being will improve my mental state, but I don't think people understand that I've been this way for a long time. The broken, dying me, is the real me now. The clean, well presented, sociable me is the mask I wear. I don't wear the mask when I'm alone. I can't fool myself.