Mixing the pills, a bottle of vodka, with a 10% will to live IS a critically ill patient.

Call an ambulance, spend the $50, do whatever is necessary to make sure you are safe. Your life is worth the hospital's time, the paramedic's time, your time, and it is certainly worth much more than $50.

The thing is, if this were my post or anyone else's post and we said we were chasing pills with vodka and didn't feel safe or really want to be alive, you would tell us to go to the hospital by any means necessary. I know you would, I've seen it. Be your own friend, give yourself the same compassion you give us, and go the extra mile to save yourself. You can do it.