Thank you everyone. I really appreciate your honesty and support.

Needless to say - it really is over. This morning I woke up to a text message that made me feel very numb and slightly humiliated still. I cried so hard when I read it and immediately all of these images and everything we talked about flashed back. It summed up my worst fear and what I'd suspected for awhile: he is seeing someone new. Nevermind the fact that he insists on being friends at some point and he still cares for me does not matter - right?

So... I guess what we had meant nothing at all? This quote just sums up everything:

"Sometimes our mind knows exactly what the truth is but our heart keeps persuading us that it is not true. We tend to trick ourselves into believing what we want to believe, what we hope to be true. Then until that one person tells the truth directly to your face, your feelings just get hurt so bad...by what you already know. Then you collapse. The truth itself is difficult to handle but the truth from that one person who you wish would tell you otherwise is the worst."