For me, the shower and bath were the scenes of abuse. Showering and bathing with enjoyment was a form of taking back my power. **** her, I'm going to shower and bathe in PRIVACY and with enjoyment, kind of thing. Also, I find body odors, mine own and other people's, and particularly women's, incredibly horrible and triggering. I mean, it's one thing when we've all been riding or working out -- those kinds of odors are no big deal. It's the -gone way too long without ever getting clean - rancid - kind of odors that are just unbearable for me. I have trouble with clients sometimes and have to do the totally dissociative thing to get through appointments. Take lots and lots of notes so *I* will remember what happened later, or at least have the information there even if I have no memory of the appointment. Even just reading this thread and hearing about other people going so long without showering makes my heart pound and my hands shake. So, I appreciate the fact that this thread was started, because it emphasizes for me that this is something I probably need to discuss more in therapy.