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Yeah. I was the star football player on my little league team, had loads of friends and respect, and then it all slowly changed.
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It wasn't a good community to begin with, but I didn't realize that up until recent years. I spent 5 years apart of it, and they all turned against me, especially when I told them I had a illness.
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I'm actually not sure what kind of doctor he is. He just prescribes me my medication after every visit. I wanted to boost my abilify from 15mg to 30mg, because 15mg is too low for me, and I also wanted to add haldol at a decent dosage, but he refused and said I needed counseling for asking for too much. I've told him, it worked for me, when I took them together, but he's pretty strict when it comes to these things.
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Do you see him for your physical health too? Otherwise he sounds like a psychiatrist as most GPs wouldn't feel comfortable prescribing 2 APs together. If you've been on that treatment before and found it helpful, perhaps you need to change doctors to one who respects your opinion?
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The reason why I feel I don't need therapy; I've been pretty down about life for some years, and my brother has been the most supportive for me. He just tells me the truth and reality about life, and I make up my mind to think positive and keep going, and that things will turn out great in the future. I've had therapist in the past and none of them made me feel this way, it's like talking to a stranger.
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The bits I've bolded seem to conflict as I read them. It sounds like you talk to your brother and you feel more hopeful, resolve to look on life positively...but still feel down about life. The number of times I've tried to look on the bright side...it is not a magical cure all as some portray it. I think it is important to remain hopeful, but that will not cure misery in itself.
Talking to a therapist
is like talking to a stranger!
Especially at first. I've seen mine only 6 sessions so far, and so he knows very little about me, and I know even less about him. The reason I feel he might be helpful is not cos it feels like we've known each other for years or we could be friends or whatever, it's because he listens to what I say and actually HEARS me. I find that very validating because most people I know tried/try to 'fix' me ie do this or do that, try this med or that. I've tried thinking positive and faking it but never 'made it' and after a while the pretence is exhausting and the mask slips. So I'm trying something different. I'm very nervous about it because I've been burnt before, but it's so nice to actually feel heard! I believe that the right therapist can work wonders. The trick is finding a good fit, which it doesn't sound like you have had in the past
*Willow*