well my mother has been pushing it on me that i go, since i'm, well now closer to 19 than 18 and i've been sexually active for a few years now and really ought to get checked out, but i havent wanted to. but i've just been thinking about it just now. ugh...i so do want to go. it'd be nice to know that everything down there is in good condition and maybe even get some birth control to sort me out a bit, but UGH. i'm so petrified of that doctor. the things they do...nightmarish. my bf is soon headed out of state and i'm sure thats not something he'd like to just tag along to. i need someone to be there and hold my hand, would one of you like to come?

whats everyone elses thoughts and feelings on this.