My dr did say that they are only starting this med on mental illness, mainly for anxiety
i told my dr today i had been feeling suicidal alot lately
instead of killing and hurting others in my head for the past weeks, now i wana hurt myself.
she suggested topamax, but we both know it's not very effective
just told the dose for tonight, hope i can sleep better >.< I don't feel like going for my work or school at all these days. just wana lie at home and do nothing - end my life.
this new med looks like pain killers in capsule. when i told them i feel like i am abusing pain killers. lol I am not a pain killer drug abuser, i keep telling myself that.
school is restarting next week and i feel a lot of stress. Plus i have this feeling of being stalked, chased and followed by black and white shadows (spirits). Sometimes I am trapped in the altered reality, their world, and i can't get out.