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as I was whipping the blade over my skin I was trying to figure out why I was doing it. I'm really not in any emotional pain, my life is, overall, as close to perfect as any human being could hope to get, my relationships with people are good and better... so why?

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Even though you feel you are in no emotional pain and that everything is great at the mo, could it be that whatever worries/anxieties/issues you may have are 'blocked' away in your subconscious and that the SI is the way that your conscious continues to deal with them? I know that this is the case for me, altho I do not do the SI for attention- quite the opp. I freak out if anyone were to see what I have done, and I am totally ashamed of my scars. Just out of interest, have you done the sanity score? I know that it is not at all scientific and 'for fun' but maybe that could give you further insight as to where things are for you right now, and maybe why.
(((((muse)))))