I am a rapid cycler as well. And I hate to hear this when I am in the thick of it, but it is true: this too shall pass. Hang in there. You will feel better tomorrow. Take your meds. There IS a point to taking them...they are for your benefit. Stick to a routine as much as you can. Be good to yourself, don't beat yourself up. You are worth hanging on for. You are so much more than this illness. Hugs.