Well, I'm home. Everyone was nice, sent me home with a script for more valium (which I tore up) and a page with hotline numbers. Plus, they'll try to refer me to a community team, or something.

I'm kind of unnerved at having this on my records now. I held off for so long, and now it's done, and while they were lovely, I don't know if it was worth it. I'm no further forward in terms of getting any suitable medication, and have no crisis team to call in emergencies, just generic numbers which I don't find useful.