I think it makes perfect sense that it's nerve wracking and you're feeling anxious. I would too. Just because I'm willing to show her everything doesn't make it too easy.

It's tough to show someone what you've said about the process of working w/them, about the therapeutic relationship, about struggles that are easier to share anonymously than in a closed room with a therapist...

but I trust it will work out alright for you and I do think it'll be safe, that your T won't pursue it further- remember, you're in the driver's seat.