I'm in a mixed state right now and I'm glad someone is here to relate to. I have my appointment tomorrow and I feel soooo bad. I hate adjusting my mood stabilizer but I need more lamictal. It's been 3 yrs since I felt this bad. I forgot just how bad it can get, and I thought I was clear through for the rest of my life. It came out of nowhere, and it's kicking my butt, especially the relentless OCD and hypomania.