I felt VERY punished, I begged her several times to please let me come in (I had plans to enter eating disorder treatment that I needed to tell her about) but she refused. But the biggest punishment was her taking my monday session with the explanation that I didnt deserve it as much as another client, and not have a replacement spot for me.

She didnt consider any of that a punishment. I asked her to just hit me and get it out of her system rather than do what she was doing, but obviously she declined.

the note (and my telling her to call AAA) was the rupture.

And I guess also my not talking about enough things in session that she thought were important.