Tonight, my sister has a friend over and they were going to watch Gothika. My dad said no in a joking way, and they were laughing about his cucumber that is huge that he grew in his garden. Meagan put the movie in downstairs and about 3 minutes into it, my dad came down stairs flicked the lights on and started yelling that she put it in. My parents let her watch it with another friend (saturday night) and when confronted with this, my dad yelled "you're luckey I don't send Alexis home right now, you're grounded!" This was all in front of my sisters friend.

The other night, my dad told me that my light was on in my room. I went and turned it off. I got back on the computer and finished working. Then, I went back into my room, turned the light on and started to pick up a little. I forgot that I was still signed on the computer, and when I realized it about 5 minutes later, I went back into the loft and was signing off when my dad walked up the stairs and yelled at me that my light was still on. i siad for him not to yell at me, and told him that i was going right back in and i was just signing off the computer. well, that made him more mad. He yells louder "your just a real sensitive boy! i'm yelling loud now, i wasnt yelling before! dont talk back to me..." As i began to walk out of the room, he got in front of me and stuck his chest out and bumped into me. I noticed he had a beer bottle in his hand. He continued to yell at me and eventualy let me leave. When I went into my room, i didnt want to do anything. nothing seemed like it would be fun. I went out in the hot tub and turned all the lights off so i could be by myself and think.

I've felt like that a lot. I don't really want to do anything, I'm just bored. I'm tired all the time too. I've noticed that my sister is getting yelled at a lot more than she used to. Which makes me feel bad. I feel guilty because I've always said to my dad, " You always yell at me, why doesn't Meagan get yelled at when she does little things wrong? Yell at her more! "dont take your anger out on me." How selfish of me! Now her getting yelled at is my fault. I'm so sick of myself.

Why doesn't he care? What does he think he's accomplishing? Who is he going to yell at next? Who is he going to push, hit, kick, etc. next? Just a few things I thought about since i've been saing such selfsh things.

well, if you all have anyother thing to say besides "its his problem" and not mine, i'd appreciate it. I've tried talking to him, he gets deffensive and yells.I've tried talking to my mom, she listens, but doesn't give me much advice, shes just quiet about it.

help please

What good are tears if they have no shoulder to fall on? What good are they if they only fall from your face and pool on the graound, without anybody noticing?