Well this is what happened. I phoned my pdoc today to see if he had spoken with my family doctor. He flipped his lid. He was mad because I did not go to my last appoinment with him. I told him I was sorry and tried to explain why I didnt go. It was nerves. I told him I feel bad for not going. Anyway, he said; "are you on your meds". I said no. Then he was really upset. I said, " I found out that I was pregnant so I went off. I found out the day before the last time I saw you. I was unsure of my plans at that time and was shocked of this pregnancy. My old family doctor felt that it would be difficult to become pregnant because of past history of pregnancies." But this was not acceptable to him. He said I was being dishonest with him. I said no I was not, I had to deal with what I just found out. I was doing good other than the shock of finding this out. I was scared of this pregnancy but was excited as well. So he continued to say; "we cant work together if this is how you are going to be." I said that I did not lie. I was feeling pretty good at that time. Lots of things going on with court and all; kids, custody and divorce; but my head was still above water. (do i make sense here). Anyway, he was still having a fit so I said, " thats fine if you dont want to help, I will deal with this on my own. I can't talk to you in this manner."
Then I hung up. Ouch, I have never done that before. To a doctor anyway. I was getting so frustrated because he would not let me explain, he was stuck on this; your not being honest. Anyway; he phoned back and I would not answer; too upset. He said he would no longer be my doctor. So I guess he is not my doc. The problem is; getting in to someone else quickly. Not going to happen. And my family doc will be really mad at me over this. Oh well. Cant change it now. I tried to talk to him and I said sorry for not showing at my appointment. He knows I have difficulites with fears and all. Not that I am using it as an escape goat. I should not have done that. I dont know what to do but I have said this before; so be it.

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