I'll let you know when I figure it out.

My bosses sat me down in December and told me they were afraid I was going to kill myself and that I needed to call the company-provided EAP line. I thought, "What a waste of time. What difference can an hour make?" So I forced myself to go to therapy instead.

Talking to a stranger for an hour seemed like a waste of time because really, what can you solve in an hour? Also, I knew I'd have to just retell my tale to someone else eventually... so I just bit the bullet and made an appointment with T.

I do recommend EAP lines to my friends now though. In a lot of cases, 1 hour can fix so much! So so much!! (I knew for me though, I needed a lot more than an hour.)

Anyway, I wouldn't say I'm "ready" and I've been seeing T since January. The first six months were basically me resisting her. I'm still resisting her, but to a slightly lesser extent.